I sometimes dream that I am whole. But I know that in that moment between the slumber and waking darkness I lost myself within the ellipsis of all that is truth. This moment onwards represents the consumption of self annihilation where trust is entirely obliterated. The only person that I can lay rest within utter reliance is myself, and yet in that short-lived innocuous moment - I can’t.

I’m weary from endowing my trust in people who feel disabled to reciprocate.